"If there's one thing I think I'm sure of, it's the fact that I must marry... I'm pretty sure about this, I think. Yes, it is time I settled down, grew up. There's no choice really: not settling down and not growing up are killing me. I've got to quit it, being young, before it's too late. I must marry... and settle down and raise a family. I must be safe. Christ, safe sounds frightening. Settling down - that seems a bit adventurous, a bit precipitate, to me. Having kids! That's what takes real balls. To become a husband and a father: no you can't get much butcher than that. Yet nearly everyone shapes up to it in the end. I bet you have or will soon. I want it too, I think, in a way.
Of course, something is missing. Ah, you noticed. You are not blind. But it is missing in me, in her, it is missing, it will never be there. We are very well suited. We get along like nobody's business. I must marry. If I don't, I'll just die..."
Martin Amis, "Money"